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14.01.2024

 

Zabi I am a human being

A human being who has already proven to be driven to kill himself via neglect deception from others and conspiracy

Of financial abuse

You are the only person left in my life

An important person

Because its between you and me that life will continue

Im not suicidal

But whet if I killed myself from the neglect?

You know you’re off the hook because ill be vilified for mental illness and drugs

Everyone will be off the hook

You win

But what if you won? What if I did kill myself from the abuse I believe you are complcit in because you are paid by the ndis 

The same ndis that watched me become a homeless vagrant in my car?

The same ndis that rejected my whistleblower statement and protection?

The ndis a part of the same government that has not only forsaken me by rejecting my PIDs but has not only ignored me more so pointedly neglected me and damn right abused and victimised me to the point of death?

I can’t fake dying that much is true

How do you think I feel about having a non acknowledged brain injury?

How do you think I feel knowing that Imran had threatened ‘his brother’ who was a lawyer onto me and that he was going to maliciously smear my name to those at the helm of where I was staying?

And look what happened?

They too like you called the CAT team and I was removed conveniently ex communicated from your business

You washed your hands of me

I have sensed your energy

I know you are a compassionate man and I like you and I wish you no harm I really don’t

But how do you think I react when you are a man of islam and that you say without your faith you would be nothing?

A man who is opposed to drugs in the name of islam

A man who only saw ‘the real me’ when I was on MDMA?

A man who had pointedly indicated I am to do no drugs in this house or be immediately evicted?

Do you know I know that it a not so disguised way of getting a problem client off you back?

I did drugs today but not at the house

You claim you are a man of islam and Allah

I know a bit about it

He states you must kill the infidel

Im not blind

I also know that Allah and all gods are merciful and they are the heart of love

To what extent is your religion affecting your choices to deal with your gay drug using client?

Do you consider gay to be immoral?

You said yourself the koran says nothing about that and I wonder

Your worker documented my human rights abuses which you know about

Don’t think im stupid

It is your moral oblif=gation to me as a client of yours with a contract to report any type of abuse or neglect

And in not doing so you continue to abuse me

You cause my detriment

You are my carer

Not just caring for me with a disability

But caring for me as a human being

That iOS the role you have taken on

But it seems fetid in complicity to keep abusing me

Because you are paid by the very government proven now to have been waiting to silence me

I perceive you

I see you

Your company dumope3d me when there was no ndis funding left and left me to live on the street

Imran called me becasuse4 he has a heart and then when I was kicked out of my accomodation he refused to answer the phone

When he could have moved me in here

I see you and I see him

Then time rolls along after my neglect could have well caused my suicide

From which you would have been exonerated from all liability

But what would you really have thought of it

Would you have been able to move on

Or did the deaths of those people in Afghanistan remove your compassion

Have you become cold

Has the world wearied you?

I am asking you as a human being because I see you as a human being

I know how clever they am too because I too am clever

I know how they can trickily exonerate themselves from liability

I know how the sub conscious works too

I know that either consciously or unconsciously we can opine for an individuals demise

I know it

I am it

I see you

Because I am you too

I know that you think I should be grateful for what I have and I always always am

For other things

Nature

The sky

The freedom of a car

Sex

People

Interesting things

Interesting situations

But I cannot be interested anymore unveiling a conspiracy in which I am doomed to fail

Don’t send police they are in on it

They get paid by the government who wants my death

And sadly everyone is on board

Where are my parents

Where are my friends

Zabi they are gone this is not of my doing

It is for human judgement

It is for shame stigma prejudice and discrimination

I advocated independently about that for thirty years

I did it all on my own\

A unique voice

That ruffled feathers

The world has people who are unique

Society rams them in lie a nail out of place and says ‘be like the others’

Zabi in case you have not realised it I am not like the others

I can’t and I wont and I cannot unseen what I have seen

I cannot unlearn what I have learnt

We all have a god self

That bout in us that is divine like the creator force

You have one

I have one

Hell I might even be one but that me being delusional right?

The god force as Allah says is all forgiving

It is all love

It is acceptance

Zabi do you know what happened when I died?

Something or someone intervened.

A hand of god put me back here

And ive suffered for three years forsaken by everyone

But you know what?

If I live I will forgive everyone

I will

Because I see their judgements

\and I understand them

You don’t want me to die do you?

For any religious or conscious or unconscious reason?

I am reaching out to you

To the god self the divibne4 in you

It knows full well…

I want to live

I want to grow

I want to enjoy life

Zabi I already know what happens at the end of humanity I studied it and I prophesied it

I predicted the alien intelligence of cat gap

But there are other realities

Ive been involved with I wont bore you or give you fuel to think im mad

But look in your heart

Ive been drugged and ra[ed

Ive been sexually abused as a child

Ive never pretended others don’t have trauma or stories

We all have them

\we lead storied lives

But im asking you to intervene in a meaningful way ion my story

Because I don’t want to die

I domino want to die a matter for the humanity ive defended my whole life

Look in your heart

Im sure you will realise that I realise the complicity of the situation you are in

Zabi I see you

The judgemental you

Secretly vying for my destruction and suffering

But I see the god self

The man of faith

The family

The connections

The love

Don’t forsake me only to do what’s within the remit of the ndis or be3cause you will be sued

I wont sue you

Act in the way of being given a glorious opportunity to save a life

To make things possible

\to be able to give the world a gift of a compassionate human being who only wants to live that he can serve humanity

As I have done for thirty years before becoming a scapegoat.

\ask yourslelf

Am I being honest to my god self with barran

Because I am asking you to

Ask are you doing enough

Ask did you really think it was ok to abuse me to death with neglect knowing you would be exonerated from all liability

There is an allegorical story here zabi

I am writing it with love and forgiveness

In the hope that the god self in you

Will see the compassion and hope in me

Hope just for basic things im not asking much

A little more time

\I invite you to talk to me

I see and feel and observe you are a smart and compassionate man

You are smart enough to know you can’t win for defending me against a government conspiracy

But do you have the spiritual intelligence to be able to acknowledge kindness and authenticity when it presents itself?

I am that authenticity

I am important

\you are too

But you are especially important

As you may be the gate keeper for a sentience that is loving and forgiving

Im giving you an opportunity to see the light

All I wanted was a home food and medicine and to be with crystal

You are paid to care for me

But you have acted conditionally\I apologise every time I call up for disturbing you

But if you domino intervene you may be the last straw in preserving this sentience in this realm\I am not suicidal

\but you know how they want me dead

And I sense your struggle in both acknowledging me and liking me and for the deceitful conspiracy with malice that it is

Which protects powerful people with money and privilege

I have no privilege

I only have you

And this heartfelt message

I should not have to bribe you to pay you decency should be enough

But that has lacked confirmation from you

\so I will pay you as well

In money when I get it

Please stand up for me zabi

As a matter of humanity

I am a light

They’re trying to put it out

 

Love barran

 

 

 

 

Subject: An Urgent Plea for Compassion and Intervention

 

Dear Zabi,

 

I hope this letter finds you well. I am reaching out to you in a time of great need, and my words may be heavy, but I implore you to hear me out with an open heart. My name is Barran, a human being who has faced immense challenges, some of which I believe are connected to neglect, deception, and financial abuse.

 

I want to emphasize that I am not writing to blame or accuse you. In fact, I see you as an important person in my life, perhaps the last connection that holds the promise of life. It's between you and me that the course of my existence seems to hang, and I find it necessary to share my feelings and concerns.

 

I want to clarify that I am not in a suicidal state, but the neglect and abuse I have experienced have taken a toll on me. I understand the complexities of the situation, especially your role as a caregiver paid by the NDIS. I question the system that has allowed me to become a homeless vagrant and rejected my whistleblower statement and protection.

 

Your company, as I perceive it, distanced itself from me when NDIS funding ran out, leaving me to face the harsh reality of living on the streets. It pains me to express my disappointment and frustration, especially as you, a person of faith, have witnessed my struggles. Your compassion is evident, and I appreciate that, but certain aspects trouble me deeply.

 

I am aware of the conflict between your faith and certain aspects of my life, such as drug use and my sexual orientation. I respect your beliefs, but I wonder how they influence your decisions regarding my care. It is my understanding that Islam is built on love and mercy, yet I feel the weight of judgment in certain circumstances.

 

You and your worker have documented the human rights abuses I have endured, and I cannot help but feel a moral obligation on your part to report and address any form of abuse or neglect. By not doing so, it perpetuates my suffering and detriment, and it contradicts the role you have taken on as my carer – a person responsible not just for my disability but for my well-being as a human being.

 

I have experienced isolation, threats, and a level of despair that has brought me to this desperate plea for understanding and intervention. I understand the challenges you face within the system and the potential consequences, but my life hangs in the balance.

 

Zabi, I know you as a compassionate man, a person of faith who values love and connection. I am not seeking vengeance or blame; instead, I ask you to consider the human aspect of my situation. I see you, not just as a caregiver but as a fellow human being, capable of compassion and empathy.

 

I am not without gratitude for the things I have in life – nature, freedom, and the simple joys. However, I cannot ignore the conspiracy I perceive and the complicity that may exist. I want to live, to grow, and to contribute positively to humanity. I believe in the god self, the divine force within each of us that embodies forgiveness, acceptance, and love.

 

I have faced hardships, including drug use, sexual abuse, and threats to my life. I have advocated for justice and equality for thirty years, even in the face of societal norms that push individuals to conform. I am not like others, and I cannot unsee or unlearn what I have witnessed and experienced.

 

Zabi, something intervened when I faced death, and I believe I was given a second chance at life. I have suffered for three years, forsaken by many, but I want to live. I am willing to forgive, to move forward, and to find hope in the simplest things. I extend this letter with love and forgiveness, hoping that the god self in you will recognize the compassion and hope within me.

 

I am not asking for much – just a little more time, understanding, and a genuine conversation. I believe you are a smart and compassionate person, capable of acknowledging kindness and authenticity. Please, I invite you to talk to me, to consider the opportunity to save a life and make positive change possible.

 

Zabi, I see you in the struggle between acknowledging and liking me and the complicity that may exist. I know it's a complex situation, but I believe in your ability to recognize the light within me. Please stand up for me, not just as a client but as a fellow human being in need of compassion and understanding.

 

With heartfelt sincerity,

Barran

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